Spoiler Mini Review: Darkdawn by Jay Kristoff

I hate endings.

I particularly hate bad endings. Bad endings have the ability to trash an entire series for me so picking up Darkdawn made me a little nervous. Nevernight is one of my all time favourite series. It’s basically me in a book and I’ve been eagerly anticipating and kind of dreading reading Darkdawn.

I finished it today…

And…

I didn’t hate it but I’m not in love either.

I’m not disappointed (maybe I kinda am) I just think Mia’s ending never really interested me as much as her life did. Plus if you don’t like Ash then a lot of the emotional impact is lost. For example I LOVED Chapter 35 because I hate Ash, but I can imagine a lot of other people were crying. Honestly Mr Kindly being told to piss off upset me more and Eclipse’s death was the worst.

Things I loved about Darkdawn:

Mia. She’s probably my favourite female character ever. Tric because he’s just the best, Mercurio and Eclipse. I also loved the story of the sun, the night, their son and the four daughters.

Things I didn’t like about Darkdawn:

The insertion of the books within themselves just felt messy. The constant inside jokes which I laughed at a few times but there must’ve been at least six character jokes about footnotes. It felt a bit like, dare I say it, fan service? There was definitely a few things that I felt were noticeable. Particularly Adonai suddenly getting a much larger role.

Ultimately I don’t like the ending cos I don’t need Mia and Ash together in the Afterlife. I was told Mia died and yes she’s technically dead but I don’t need plot twist of dead Mia coming back to dead Ash to live happily ever after. Forever.

Honestly I feel like Mia is so much more than Ash’s obsessive love and I just didn’t need it. She should’ve dropped her for Tric as far as I’m concerned. Imagine if Ash was a man telling Mia to stay with her and not do what’s right and acting like she’s the only one who cares about Mia? That’s controlling and I’m not into it. She wanted Mia to herself but Mia is a person not a thing to have.

The book also felt a bit too bloated I found my self skimming which I never did before. The final battle was probably about 30 pages too long in my view.

OVERALL I love Mia Coreve and HER story but it came too obvious to me the book kinda played up to fans and jokes that exist outside the books which I would not have minded but they began to become excessive.

My burning love for this series has unfortunately waned.

This was supposed to be a mini review so I’ll stop now.

Rating: 3/5 stars

“I didn’t go out and kill people. I just made it up” – Jay Kristoff, Darkdawn Event, London, 2019

Life Achievement Unlocked: Meet one of my favourite authors of all time.

Anyone who knows me knows I am obsessed with the Nevernight chronicles. The humour, the world, the cat familiar, this series speaks to my soul. My first awareness of Jay Kristoff was on twitter when he made a thread asking fellow authors what words should never be used in smut. If you can find it again it’s hilarious and definitely worth reading.

Several twitter interactions later I knew if Jay ever visited the UK I was going to do everything I could to go. Luckily I was linked to the tickets to the London event before it was announced so I didn’t have to stress about getting one.

The day of the event was a long day for me. I went to work at 6am, got the train at 2pm, got into London at 4pm and queued till we were let in at 7pm.

The first hour of the event was a talk with Samantha Shannon and it soon became apparent that I stalk Jay Kristoff way too much on social media as I knew most of the stories. Most particularly I knew the origin story of how Nevernight started from an argument about the c-bomb.

After the talk there was the questions which were a bit bizarre in some cases. One girl asked who he chose to bang in The Witcher game and one girl said she worked with bodies and wanted to know how he wrote death so accurately?

Next came the signing which started at 8pm and I finally got to meet Jay Kristoff at 10:30pm. The queuing for the event was stressful and long and one girl managed to get to the front of the queue twice and a few others tried to push in front and it was chaotic.

So I finally got to meet Jay Kristoff and..I was basically a zombie. I gave him three books and was trying to get two personalised instead of just the one. He nearly personalised the wrong one and I kept trying to explain if he could personalise the other two that would be great but I know he’s not supposed to so it was up to him.

Then the girl who was supposed to be organising the books said I was making things complicated.

I still remember this comment because it kinda ruined the whole moment for me. Like I don’t need criticism when I’m tired and nervous? I don’t know.

I then gave Jay my metalmarks or I might have done that before the confusing book stuff I’m not sure. He said they were cool anyway and would give the aurora rising one to Amie.

Finally I got a photo and made a joke about our height difference before leaving.

Overall this day was bitter sweet I got to meet Jay which was definitely a once in a lifetime opportunity. It was however contrasted with a very bad day due to completely unrelated and building mental health issues I had which meant I spent more of my day crying silently or to my boyfriend. You may wonder why I mention this but I think it’s important to be honest that it wasn’t all fangirling and excitement.

You can have good moments in the bad days too and I’ll remember the day I met Jay Kristoff for many reasons.

VoyagerCon 2019: Definitely no YA romances to be found here

I went to VoyagerCon last night at Waterstones Piccadilly. When the event was announced I’d just been on an adult fantasy buying binge so I had books by 3 of the 6 authors to get signed. I will tell you right now though after meeting and listening to S. A. Chakraborty I’m regretting not buying and bringing her books. I met up with Steph, Sammy, Emily, Bethany and Daphne. We sat right up at the front which screwed us later when they started signing from the back.

My favourite panel was definitely Myths and Legends with R. F. Kuang and S. A. Chakraborty who were hilarious and had such interesting insights. When talking about writing different cultures Rebecca said she struggled to write white people in her book which is an interesting reversal of the norm. She also discussed writing about cultures she is a part of and said that while her book represents China as she experienced it not everyone agreed. In this instance she said she didn’t like this kind of gatekeeping as just because her experience doesn’t exactly reflect other Chinese people’s doesn’t mean it’s wrong. I could not agree more with this.

The next panel was with Anna Stephens and Anna Smith Spark who discussed Bad Ass Women. I loved Anna Smith Spark’s viewpoint on women not needing to be violent and warriors to be badass women. Her little anecdote about how the first page of her goodreads reviews for “A court of Broken Knives” is filled with pissed off readers who thought it was a YA romance had the room creasing. She guessed this happen because she’s a woman and her book has Court in the title. Anna Smith Spark also talked about how she got into writing and was open about the fact she has Aspergers which I loved. I have experience with Aspergers in my own family so I’m always in awe when I see someone with Aspergers doing public speaking and basically killing it.

The last panel was with Den Patrick and Patrick Newman who played a DND type game with the room. They handed round a sword to audience members who got to make a choice on how they would deal with various monsters and situations the authors described. All the monsters were also from the books of the authors at the con which I thought was a nice touch. This was so much fun and had some hilarious choices like selling Anna Stephens soul and looking a man up and down and saying “I’ve seen bigger and better”.

After the panels there was the signing. I brought 2 books for R. F. Kuang, 3 for Anna Smith Spark and 2 for Den Patrick. My first signing was with Anna Amith Spark. We got chatting about Aspergers and she recommended a book series to me with an Aspergers character who just is and it’s not about his struggles or anything. Which we both agreed is the best rep. I also said the boiling blood of a dragon killing someone was a nice touch and not one I had considered before. She was lovely and wrote messages in all three of my books.

I then went to Den Patrick and chatted about his game and how it reminded me of DnD. He told me to tweet him my favourite character when I’ve read the books.

Lastly I went to R. F. Kuang. I said I loved what she said about Altan being abusive and trash in her panel. AGREEE. In her panel she also said she’s a sucker for teacher pupil relationships and I said I’m the same. I love Rin and Jiang’s relationship and she wrote a little spoiler in one of my books for me saying “Jiang will be back”. I then gave her my Poppy War inspired metalmark from my shop and she loved it and said she never gets swag. We then took a photo together which honestly I hope never surfaces because I can’t imagine I look good with my shiny nose and been up since 5am dead eyes. It was so nice though another girl in the signing for Shannon next to me said she loved my metalmarks and I was honestly like is this real life?

So as usual I had an awesome time with Steph, Sammy, Emily and Bethany.

The Holly Black merchandise Saga and what it revealed about bookish fan merchandise

I’m gonna kick this off by stating the obvious. Profiting off someone else’s intellectual property is illegal unless it falls under fair use. Now I’m not going to get into the complexities of what counts as fair use but it can mean a whole bunch of things. Fair use allows other people’s intellectual property to be used if its a parody, used to inform or educate and doesn’t take away profit from the original owner. Honestly there’s so much scope just read this article if you want it explaining for you.

Now that you’ve brushed up on intellectual property law it should be pretty clear that some bookish merchandise isn’t technically legal under certain circumstances unless the license to merchandise has been bought or permission has been given by the author.

So you’re probably wonder how the hell shops like mine even exist?

Well let me tell you and I think the Holly Black situation is a great example to explain this. Holly Black recently sold the license to merchandise based on her books to a small company called TopatoCo. She included in her statement that all unofficial merchandise will be stopped. Contrast this with Leigh Bardugo who did the exact same thing with her licensing but also stopped cease and desists being sent to small shop selling Grishaverse merchandise.

Confusing no? One author is like get off my property (which she is totally allowed to do btw that is not what I’m debating) and another is happy for people like me to continue as far she is allowed to say this.

And this is the problem. Many authors don’t get involved in licensing, they don’t sell merchandise and it’s usually only when their books get very big or made into a tv series that they may have a problem with small business owners. So small business have been allowed to exist and thrive and even if they aren’t selling the licensing to their merchandise they could easily tell us to stop but don’t.

So why not?

First of all I believe small business owners fill a void that authors and publishers have been unwilling to fill. I’m willing to bet 99% of bookish merchandise is not licensed and I’d bet good money that every book box is not asking permission from every author they include in their boxes either.

Authors have been known to comment on and share bookish merchandise and have never said a word. Is this because they lack the legal backing to stop every shop or because they just don’t care until they are looking to get into the merchandise game themselves?

I believe it’s the latter only because the book community is hugely respectful and shops like mine only exist because people love the authors works so much. So if authors as a whole did not like bookish merchandise I feel like they could say something and we would respect their wishes.

As with Holly Black as soon as she announced she wanted unlicensed merchandise stopped everyone started discounting and removing products to sale. No protest.

The arguments and drama only started when the alternative merchandise being offered was vastly more expensive and someone at TopatoCo started being rather rude to people commenting on their Instagram.

As a small shop owner myself I want to be fair and I want to be legal but there isn’t any simple or existing process to get the authors permission and licensing can be expensive. If I am working with a £1 per item profit margin and I have to pay even £50 for a license I’d have to sell 50 of one product to break even.

I’m not saying authors shouldn’t be allowed to profit from their work but I do wish there was an existing process for us small shop owners to be legitimatised without breaking bank.

Shop owners at the end of the day only exist because there’s a huge market that wasn’t being catered for and we do have a value. I’ve seen many people say they have been introduced to books through fan merchandise and that’s marketing they didn’t have to buy. They didn’t have to spend their money on merchandise or artists or supplies. We do all that and we do it because we love books and we love creating.

Maybe that’s my own naive outlook but I think we do have a value and I’d love to see in the future a way for authors and small shop owners to co-exist. Nobody wants to steal money from someone else and that’s not why I started selling.

YALC 2019 Day two: Looked like the Slytherins had a party last night

Saturday at YALC

I got to YALC at 8:30am laden down with my two illustrated editions of Harry Potter and Vicious by V.E Schwab. They weren’t making people queue in the rain this time so we all waited in the lobby. A girl came up to me I didn’t know who it turned out I knew from Instagram which was nice. Honestly everyone should be forced to wear a name badge with their usernames because I don’t know who anyone is.

The stampede up to the YALC floor wasn’t too bad but people were queuing for the Infinity Son drop and running and blocking the lifts. It was so bad the publisher was banned from doing it again and instead had to raffle the last 100 on the Sunday. There was also a huge queue to buy books from Hodder to get an ARC. I thought stupidly that people were only being given one ARC for buying two books. But no you could actually buy 4 books and get 2 or 6 and get given 3. Which I think is a bit greedy and doesn’t really give everyone an opportunity to get one.

I ended up seeing Tube Girl again and told her what happened on the tube. We had a good laugh and she said she probably looked like a stalker. I didn’t get her name which is annoying but I did see her around a lot that day.

Early in the morning I went to go get a virtual queue ticket cos I figured the Schwab queue would be crazy. The queue for the VQ tickets was super long and ironic. My friends and I ended up waiting an hour and going back when nobody was there. I got tickets for Jim Kay, V.E Schwab and Zen Cho.

It was funny as before I went to YALC I really wanted to buy Zen Cho’s book but I didn’t have the first one in hardback and I like my editions to match. I was telling Emily who found some on eBay so we both ended up buying Sorcerer to the Crown and The True Queen and getting The True Queen signed together.

Me and Emily are definitely a bad influence on each other as we also ended up spending £20 on prints with Steph later on from Diana Dworak’s stand. I got myself an amazing Manon Blackbeak print and Mia from Nevernight print which I couldn’t resist tweeting to Jay Kristoff in case he was missing from his wall (he wasn’t). After that I went off to get my book signed by V.E Schwab. This is when I witnessed some pretty poor behaviour by an event organiser/volunteer.

A girl in front of me was trying to get in the queue but she didn’t have a virtual queue ticket. The guy told her you can’t queue without one and she should’ve got it in the morning. But Schwab started signing at 11am so it’s not unreasonable this girl hasn’t arrived at YALC before then. She was kicked out of the queue and didn’t get her book signed as far as I’m aware. It was never clear that a virtual queue ticket was mandatory and I only went and got one that morning because I knew she was a hugely popular author.

It wouldn’t be YALC if you didn’t spot some famous people (besides the authors of course). Throughout the weekend I saw Jason Momoa walk by alot and Alfie Allen with his dog who definitely chuckled when Emily yelled and pointed “Look it’s Alfie Allen’s dog”. Later one in the day I went down to Comic Con with Sammy to get her book signed by Tom Felton and we met Vicky from whatvickyread while we were down there.  Sammy’s friend Abby and I weren’t meant to stay in the queue right up to the signing desk but nobody stopped us so we kind of met Tom Felton too and I tried to sneak a picture which is DEFINITELY not allowed. I have to say Tom Felton didn’t look his best (hungover for sure) and at one point awkwardly stopped to pick a new song before signing Sammy’s book.

Back at YALC Sammy and I were trying to get her friend Abby a copy of Into the Crooked Place but by this time people had clocked onto the fact bats were being hidden and it was mayhem. As soon as one of the staff left to hide them they were followed and the bat was grabbed as they put it down. Luckily Abby did manage to grab one later when more were hidden again

My final signing of the day was Jim Kay who was LOVELY and very tired as apparently he was moving house. His table was right on the end of the green room where the door was so a fair few famous actors kept walking behind him and he joked he was missing it and I laughed because Zachary Quinto was talking to someone about 2 metres away.

I popped down to Comic Con again after that to have a look around and visited the Cake in a Jar stand where I bought Peel the Force their banoffee flavoured one.

Sammy, Emily, Abby and I decided to go to WestFields for dinner and afterwards I decided I wasn’t going to attend YALC for the Sunday as I’d done and seen everything I wanted to. I was so exhausted that night I fell asleep and woke up at 2am with no idea what happened.

Compared to last year YALC has definitely improved. Publishers and book boxes have definitely upped their game on what they have to offer and I felt like everyone had a fair shot. I think having virtual queues for everything was a great idea IF everyone had known about it and I preferred the way the signing area was set up compared to last year when queues were cut in half by stands.

I am actually thinking of exhibiting myself so maybe you will see my stand full of my metalmarks next year!

YALC 2019 Day One: It’s not YALC without a Jason Momoa sighting.

First off my journey to YALC 2019 started with me deciding not to even go. I caught a train on the Thursday night and it was cut short and was only taking me to Doncaster. I was then told I could travel to Sheffield and then St Pancras but my sister sent me a screenshot that they were all cancelled.

Cue meltdown and me getting off the train halfway to Doncaster and waiting on a platform for half an hour for my boyfriend to pick me up. My boyfriend and hero offered to drive me down to London himself but by the time he got to me and down to London and back it would’ve been 2am. He had work at 8am.

So he took me to Pizza Hut and we planned a cute weekend and I accepted not going.

Until the next morning when I saw the trains were running normally. The biggest reasons I didn’t want to travel on the Friday was getting stuck at some random station all day and having my suitcase on me all day. I decided missing out because of a suitcase was childish. I dived out of bed, got dressed and woke my boyfriend up to tell him I was going.

We raced to the bus stop and missed the bus to the train station, but instead of accepting all the signs from the universe I shouldn’t be at YALC this weekend my boyfriend drove me to nearest train station. On the train down I noticed there was already some controversy brewing at YALC. Everyone was forced to queue in the rain and they were let in one by one. Meaning some people got to all the freebies while others were still stuck on the queue #drama.

I finally got to YALC at 12 and I met up with my bookstagram besties Emily and Sammy. Sammy had bought me The Dragon Republic and the Priory of the Orange Tree print that Illumicrate were selling because we didn’t think I was going to make it. I thought I would need to pay her back but she let me keep them as a birthday present! I then went round and entered all the raffles with Sammy for Darkdawn, Kingdom of Souls (not for me I was giving it to a friend as I was lucky enough to get one already) and the stack Illumicrate was giving away everyday.

I ended up buying two pins from Fable and Black at the Illumicrate stand – one for Vicious and another for Priory of the Orange Tree. Illumicrate were doing a lucky dip with every purchase as well as entry into two raffles one for the day and one for the weekend where they would email the winner. The girl before me in the lucky dip pulled out a white disk and got to choose from two sets of coasters and a set of cards from the ACOTAR special edition box. I commented to Sammy that I would 100% choose the cards and I remember the girl in front picked the coasters. Then it came to my turn with the lucky dip and what do you know I pulled out another white disk and got to choose the cards as my prize.

I also visited one stand (forgot the publisher) who were giving away an ARC with every purchase and I just missed out on Midnight Beauties (Steph who was with us picked up the last one) and I got Wild Savage Stars instead.

Later on in the day Sammy and I happened to walk by the Hot key Books stand just as one of the women was telling a girl that to get an ARC you had to find a “rubber something”. I told Sammy this then as we walked forward Sammy spotted rubber bats on the big tables in the events area. She grabbed one and then pointed one out to me behind a sign. We had found these bats before they had even announced on twitter that you had to find them to get an arc. So at 2 we went back and claimed our copies of Into the Crooked Place by Alexandra Christo.

I didn’t have any books for authors that were signing that day but I did stand with Sammy in one queue and got talking to this girl behind us. Turned out she was staying in Loughton and I was staying in South Woodford (On the same tube line) and she said “oh well maybe I’ll see you on the train back” and at the time I laughed but I knew I was leaving early to see my friend so I definitely wouldn’t see her.

One thing you should know about YALC as it’s super common to see celebrities from the London Film and Comic Con because the Green Room they all chill in is on our floor. So instances of Jason Momoa walking by saying Good Morning are not uncommon which is pretty cool. I did most of my celeb sighting on Saturday however when we discovered the entrance to the Green Room. More on that in my next blog post.

I left YALC at 3pm to have dinner with my friend at Westfield in Shepherds Bush. When we got the tube about 4 hours later I remembered what the girl had said and I told my friend. Less than ten seconds later THAT same girl from YALC got onto the tube and sat down next to my friend. I don’t think I’m telling this story right but it was hilarious at the time and a pretty freaky coincidence.

Spoiler Mini Review: The Dragon Republic by R.F. Kuang

WARNING: Please be aware this book is the sequel to The Poppy War so if you haven’t read that one DON’T read this review or the synopsis below.

Synopsis:

Rin is on the run…

Haunted by the atrocity she committed to save her people, addicted to opium, and driven by the murderous commands of Phoenix, the vengeful god who has blessed Rin with her fearsome power.

Rin’s only reason for living is to get revenge on the traitorous Empress who sold her homeland, Nikan, to her enemies.

With no other options, Rin joins forces with the powerful Dragon Warlord, who has a plan to conquer Nikan, unseat the Empress, and create a new Republic. She throws herself into his war.

After all, making war is all she knows how to do…

Mini Review:

My biggest problem with the last book was Altan and Rin’s weird obsession with him.

So I won’t lie this book still had far too much of Altan in it with Rin grieving for him and basically becoming him. BUT we finally progress away from Altan after about 200 pages and that’s when the book gets much more interesting.

I loved the potential romance between Rin and Nezha that started to develop and Kitay and Venka got to take on more central roles which I preferred to the Cike.

As for the story I was hooked and I love how everything gets flipped on it’s head and there aren’t any easy solutions. This book does political intrigue and war spectacularly well and I can’t wait to see how Rin’s story will end.

I really don’t have the right words do this fantastic series justice on how morally gray, complex and fascinating it is. It’s a must read if you love adult fantasy with a touch of dark humour and amazing world building.

Rating: 4 stars